Hey guys! I’m going to be talking about my not so serious “hair insecurity” alongside this style post. If you’ve been following me for a bit, you already know my front hair has been disrespecting me since 1992. Sometime last year I came across the name “Alopecia” which is a type of hair loss that occurs when your immune system mistakenly attacks hair follicles. This made me happy because I thought I had finally found the issue. A few days later I found out Alopecia is usually temporary and this took me back to square one of wondering what the problem is. Oh did I mention my grandma and sister has the same issue? But it’s different with theirs because at some point in their lives they actually had full edges…I’ve never had that.
To be honest, this was not at all an insecurity up until 2-3 yrs ago. I have always loved to pack my hair up and be on my way, but when people started making comments about it, that was when I started noticing how “bad” it was. It never bothered me in school because my close friends and family were used to it and nobody talked about it because it was just a part of life. However, as you grow you start noticing more stuff about yourself. So I became hair conscious and really tried to cover up my receding hairline. I went natural a couple times to see if it would help but nope. One thing I loved about being natural was that it gave the illusion of a full front hair. But I realized natural hair isn’t for everybody and it definitely isn’t for me ( a story for another day). Long story short, I actively started looking for remedies and at some point in my life for about a day or two, I considered taking hair growth pills. They’re probably not bad o, I just don’t think it’s that serious for me yet. I might consider taking something for it later in life after I’ve had series of conversations with my doctor, but right now…I’m good!
If you read my 25 lessons in 25 yrs post you’d see I mentioned how I’ve made peace with it. I mean, I have to choose my battles wisely. I can’t be having headache ontop hair line. Besides having weaves, wigs, and braids legit give me a headache which is one of the reasons I prefer to just wear my hair out.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying wigs and co can cause headaches, I’ve just always had this recurring headache that I try to eliminate anything that triggers it. I still have my wigs tho and I’m on the verge of purchasing a new one. Anyhoo, my relationship with my hair is a very tricky one because I love to manipulate it a lot. I get bored of having the same style for too long so I always crave something different. Which is why I have been up and down with my natural hair journey. In 2014 I was team natural, then I relaxed it mid-2015. December 2015 I did another big chop and started all over again. I got bored Aug this year and relaxed it again, now I want to cut it and dye it blonde. I don’t know what that will look like but I know I’ll be giving it a try. Highest if I don’t like it I’ll dye it back and move on with my life. See, it’s just hair and it shouldn’t be giving us that much headache.
To conclude this epistle, I guess what I’m trying to do here is encourage you to rock what you have. If you can feel confident and beautiful with extensions you should also take care of what you have naturally so you can feel confident and beautiful in it. Beneath all the falsies, the wig, nails etc be confident in yourself and know that you’re absolutely beautiful without them. One thing I’ve realized for sure is that your confidence level equals how dope you think you are and that is the level of dope other people will see in you. Trust that you are beautiful in your own damn self and don’t let anybody tell you different.
About my outfit:
If you follow me on Instagram (@munastiic) you already know this outfit is from my recent collab with The5kshop. For my new visitors, The5kshop is an affordable online clothing store! Check them out, they have really nice pieces and their prices are ahhhmazing!
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